i believe there are many variations of love.

love comes in all different shapes and sizes, and it exists between all sorts of people, places, or things.

no matter the distance, love can either advance or diminish, but forever it will thrive.

between people, it is all too common that love burns more fiercely in one player than it does the other.

also, one's heart must be the single architect which is to build the love so great that you cannot help but notice its beauty.

between places or things, it is common that the recipient itself be destroyed. thus, material love is not to be advocated.

there is always more, but i'm not in a romantic mood, believe it or not.

-rhonda.

ps. it's a divine love we have, my darling.

it's an addiction, i can stay up as late as i wish and i'm not tired until my head hits the pillow.

i think about things such as life, love, death, vengeance, etc. i cry over things and i laugh over things, and i enjoy my simple moments in solitude.

i know well enough now that i have fallen head over heels with the idea of being in love. i will fall in love with anyone just so i can learn about them and obsess over them. i do, on occasion, hold back. it's easy for me to do now, because i am fully aware of the consequences of becoming over-attached, i just don't always choose to avoid them. i'm the judge of when i want to throw caution to the wind.

i don't have many friends, and some of my closest friends live thousands of miles away from me (because i flow so nicely with friendships and romances through the internet). i know that one day we'll meet and it'll be worth it, as absence makes the heart grow fonder, but currently, it's hard on me. i mean, it works against me in a way, because i know that if i could physically interact with these friends, we would grow closer and our relationships could strengthen, but i've got all the time in the world, right?

wrong. people die, a lot. i'm not even going to go into a list of people that i know that have died this year only. they drop like flies. i could die before i get a chance to meet these close, close friends. i could die and they would message me, and after no response, they might think i'm ignoring them. granted, i would hope they would know in their hearts that i would never outright ignore the people i love. you just never know.

my mind is the strangest one i know.

i need to get rid of this fat that seems to be building around my tummy and thighs. i need to turn it into muscle.

i would love to put myself out into the world, to run away for a summer and live on my own. i'm positive i could make it, as long as i had my ipod and some way to charge it.

so, the idea for my room is that i'm going to paint it - friday - and it will be predominately the colour of a stormy ocean, and i'll have a bit be my safe harbor. it was initially a random thought, but i think the concept works nicely.

my dad's hearing is going fast, i keep having to speak louder and louder. my mom doesn't have much tolerance for it. she's really not an easy person for me to get along with, to be honest. we're polar opposites, mostly because she is the most two-faced person i know. everyone thinks she's sweet, but she really is just a gossiping snob with a short temper. though, she is my mom, so i love her.

mice are my absolute favorite. i have this adorable mouse that stays in my barn, and i want so desperately to tame it.

i need to get to bed, my dad will be up in an hour.

life is bittersweet.

- rhonda.

there are many times when i am overcome with emotion and feel the undying need to spill my thoughts to this little page. now is not one of those times, but i was struck with feeling earlier this evening, so i figure it's better late than never.

i'm going to take the time to explain myself.. in case you ever want to get to know me, everything you need should be right here.

my first name is rhonda, followed by the middle name, leah, which is pronounced like "lee."

i'm probably younger than you.

i don't steal the covers. (too much too soon? get over it.)

i love stoner movies, or really any r rated movie that's written with cleverity.

i make up words, such as cleverity, and they are stored in my rhondationary, which i keep between the folds of my brain.

it takes me a while before i can really trust you, and i'll probably always be a little wary, but i do give love away very easily. i think i'm pretty easy to talk to.

i have had experience with tragedy. know that, but don't be guarded - i'll question you, i swear.

there's only one way to really win me over... it's listed in one of my previous blogs. if you're cunning take a peak, you won't be able to complete the task anyway.

i miss alot of things. i blogged about that too, but my list could definitely use some updating.

music is seriously what keeps me here. without it, i would be empty, heartless.

liars are my least favorite thing.

i give away my personal information like it's everybody's information. it's mostly because i'm so laid back.

i fear nothing but losing my friends.

pokemon is way too awesome. i catch that on cartoon network every saturday morning.

i love helping people and saving things. even though i am a leo (in love with myself), i'll listen to what you have to say and i'll really care.

i'm going to be myself, whether you like it or not. i am, however, able to make slight modifications if you are horribly offended, but it isn't something i particularly care for.

BUBBLES: i fucking love them.

i have a ton of great friends who live hundreds of miles away from me.

i highly dislike being left hanging.

and i don't know what else to say. if you ask, i'll tell - that's the kind of person i am.

xoxo,

   rhondaaa